THE STORY:
Gasping for air. Sinking deeply into gook and tar and awful men. I permitted them to make me feel like a nothing. In these short term avoidances of loneliness I sought out the most unsavory of characters. And late one night I began to think about my grandma and how much she loved me. I wondered if she was still alive how hurt she’d be knowing the way I let men devalue me. And so began the challenge of learning to love myself as much as my grammy did.
THE LYRICS:
Here I am desperate again
Watch another bridge burn
Feeling untouchable
Scared I’ll never learn
To appreciate I basically have everything
I logically wished for
Stuck inside two day relapse
I wanted more and more
Come lie with me
Take me by the hand, help me understand
What it means to be loved
Come lie with me
Make me proud of the skin that I lost myself in
Again
Remember kid, you were loved as a Grandson
Loved as a friend
Frustrated don’t you wish that you’d never
Have to wait a table again?
Obsessions always bruised so fast
and the healing was slow
Stuck inside two day relapse
He never lets the hurt show
He is learning to live with silence now.